There's a kind of Hush...

Well, no one has updated their blog in awhile. 'Cept for Bubz! Quit that job! But anyways, I hope all is well with everyone. I've been struggling to make my life make sense... if that makes sense.

Religion... ... ... hmmmm... I hate this subject. I just want to say everyone out there who is a Juggalo and believing in the Dark Carnival. Good for you! I love ya'll and that will never change. But to me... the Dark Carnival is really Christianity covered up with blood and guts and all that. If you believe in the Dark Carnival... you believe in God. So, who would really be upset if I went back to Christianity?? Probably a lot of people. And a lot of people would be happy. But I'm not in it to make people happy or unhappy.

I've always believed in God. Whether it be by the Carnival or the Bible. Religion is so tricky. It offends people in so many ways. For it or against it... people are offended. I stayed a happy distance away from because I don't like to offend people and I don't like to be offended. Spirituality is my own. It does not matter if Monkeys evolved to man or if time honored Christian traditions were fashioned from ancient Pagan rituals. I just know that the only time that I felt inner peace was when I was in church.

Does this mean that I'm going to be cramming religion down other people's throat? Never! Does this mean that I'm going to be a goody two shoes and think that I'm better than everyone? I already think that I'm better than everyone. So, I guess that won't be any different. LOL! Just kidding! I will never think that I'm better than anyone. I just need to come to terms with me. With my inner self.

I'm just confused right now. I just know that everything happens for a reason. I don't know if I'm going through these trials because I've lost sight of my own spirtuality. Or what. I don't know. Alls I know that I don't have anything to lose.

Alright... that's all I have to say about that.