My Dream

I had a dream about my dad for the first time in years. He's been gone for six years. I've not thought about him for awhile. I feel bad about that. It's still weird to think that my dad and brother have been gone for 5 and 6 years this July.

My dream was awesome. I went over to my parents' house and he was helping me pack some things. As I approached the house I could see Lake Mendota in the background. They had a lake front house. I started emptying out a dresser that I wanted. It was in my mom's scrapbooking room so I had to take her scrapbooking stuff out of it. I looked out the window that was facing the backyard and the lake was right up to the window. I cracked the window up a little bit and stuck my fingers in it. My fingers made a tiny ripple in the water. the water was so calm and blue. I turned around and my dad looked kind of somber. I asked him if he missed Wisconsin. He started crying. I asked him why he doesn't just go back up there. He shrugged in response. Then he asked me if I was going somewhere with my boyfriend. I told him that I was going with Ray and that he wasn't my boyfriend at all! And there were times that I would catch glimpses of Heath in the corner of my eye bringing in more boxes. I remember wanting my mom to come home to see dad. In my dream, I thought about calling my mom at work and ask her to come home.

There are many interpretations that I thought about. I thought that maybe my dad and I were in reversed roles. Such as my dad was me asking me about Wisconsin and moving back up there. If that made sense? A lady at school suggested that dreams were thoughts of the day. Like I was thinking about missing Wisconsin and wanting to move back up there so badly. I know that it was a dream to let me know that my dad and my brother are looking after me. It was nice to see them again even though it was only a dream.

And yet, I feel no pain...

Sorry that I haven't been updating like I should. LOTS of stuff has happened since the last time. Simone turned 1 and we put down a deposit on our very own trailor.

Simone's birthday party was a lot of fun. It was kinna chilly so we didn't stay outside but we did grill. She had soooo much fun playing with her new toys and she got a butt load of clothes! It's so crazy to think that I had her a little over a year ago. She's such a sweetheart! We went to her 12 month check up. She's 31 1/2 inches long and 24 lbs 12 oz. The doctor said that she's growing up very well. She's in the top 5% of growth amongst 12 month olds. She got 4 shots! The poor little one!

Well, we put down 1/2 the deposit for a trailor. We're renting it. It's a 2 bedroom and 2 bath. It's got a pretty good size kitchen but the bedrooms are tiny! There's track lighting in the living room so it's looks modern even though the trailor is prolly 25 years old! But it's exciting getting a place of our own. We've always lived with a roomie. So, it's going to be nice to have a place of our own!

Speaking of roomies, I haven't heard from Ben. It's kinna upsetting. I'm not saying that he doesn't have a right to be upset at me but he had told me once that it would take him a lot to get upset at someone. I didn't know that I pushed him that far! I wish that he would talk to me. I really miss him. I had a dream that he wasn't upset at me. We were all happy and huggy and stuff. I hope that he starts talking to me again after I start paying him back!

Well, that's I all I have now!

Finally!!

I've got some time to make a post. JEESH!! Everytime I get on the computer to do a post up, I get interrupted and I forget what I'm going to say. But nothing is going to stop me this time! NOTHING!

Ok, so, I was complaining to my friends that I had to wake up at 6:00 am on Friday to talk to the State's Attorney. And believe me, it was worth it!! I got my insurance fine reduced to $100 and I was convicted of one seatbelt which he reduced to $20. He dismissed my driver's license ticket and two seat belt tickets! It's over $300 bucks but that's better than $1000!! So, that made me happy.

Then Friday night, my best friend's mother adopted me and we all went to the Mother/Daughter banquet at the church I used to go to. It was fun. The meat was dry but the rolls and salad were AWESOME! YUM!

Well, as many of you may know. My baby girl is going to be turn one next Friday! I am so excited to have a birthday party. My very first birthday party from a mother's point of view! It's exciting. I'll be sure to post up the pictures of the party we're going to have for her on Saturday. It's going to be fun! I wish that my Wisconsin friends could make it down. I really miss them. I understand though. Gas is outrageous and all. But just you all forgot.... I LOVE YOU!!

School has been going really well. I've been getting a lot more clients. I did a full facial and eyebrow design. It was kinna boring today. I vacuumed and all that. YAY! But my best friend had one of her friends call up and I've got something to do on Thursday! WOOT!

I am very pleased to announce a great accomplishment from my boy Oddball up in Appleton, WI. He's recording his first album and he's got all his shit together and I'm excited when it comes out. Besides his girlfriend, I'm his #1 fan... well, I guess that would make me his #2 fan unless Michelle wants to share the title! :-D But you guys should hit up his blog up on 1up.com. It's pretty cool. I'm so proud of him even though I'm not on the album. *SOB*! Oh well, hopefully next album!

Alright... I'm going to go relax before Simone wakes up! BYE!